Matthew Conrad

May 15, 1986 - Ostrowiec Świętokrzyski
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double proxy & half-baked m'eh

the current incel "problem" wouldn't be
so... pertinent... if you were to ask:
where's that war i heard about:
the one that would be worth dying for,
the one that would be worth writing
poetry about?

once upon a time we could have been
put to good use: useful in the churn
of body to mud to poppies: bright and red...
even i (oh look, grandstanding)
can't think of any war that was worth
fighting since... the last one...

the last one being: when current history begins /
ends...
i'm pretty sure there have been
wars since, the "last one"...
but beside the mercenaries -
or that wars have become proxy...
well there's no passion, is there:
in a proxy war...
there's no homage to England when you're
stuck in the trenches of Belgium
writing home...
or of home...

if Iraq and Afghanistan wasn't a proxy
war for Saudi Arabia... i don't know what was...
perhaps it was a proxy war for Kuwait...
the Iraqis do not appear to be favourably
treated by the Saudis...

so you could this whole incel "problem"
by allowing Ares to take off his condom
and spew blitzkrieg souls into the equation...
an honest war is almost a fetish these days...
if the man is not this that or the other...
well: cannon fodder...
i prefer the term cannon fodder than...
say: specimen of the dodo project...
or... a walking abortion...

my my... what concerns of others in the almighty
"congress" of earthenware is to be made
of these others: should he be standing
erect with four limbs and no brain in a pickle jar?
but there's no real war, to be waged, once more,
is there?

all those wars staged by the h'americans
after the last one: the second one...
were they not all proxy?
well... i'm pretty sure they were and weren't
at the same time: para-wars (dox and Ical in the end)
sure... as long as there was a double-standard
to the proxy... or rather: there was a double-proxy...

back when Vietnam was happening:
what was reaped was at least something relevant
in pop culture: born on the 4th of july,
the deer-hunter, jefferson airplane...
fuck me: the soundtrack was so great back then...
they even used it in Skull Island: king kong...
so yeah: that's a double-proxy war...

Afghanistan and Iraq were proxy wars
for the house of ibn-Saud...
and what cultural ref. points do we have from them?
from 9/11 paranoia...
more: looking at the past...
almost 20 years into the 21st century and...
nothing much happened...
two towers... and the third one:
Grenfell...
and... how... if you were to chop down
a tree in the middle... the top half would tilt
and fall... there would be no cascade folding...
tier by tier... you couldn't even fathom
a ground zero...

i'm guessing: people gave up on reading...
so... out came a fiction...
a gripping televised novel... and the turkeys
came out to strut and gulp and become
fattened...
it's not even a conspiracy theory...
it's a mundane: brush it under the carpet sort
of mentality...

Vietnam was a proxy war in that:
the h'americans were fighting for themselves
in the future... that the ideal would remain true...
it's not like Vietnam is a grand
investement story... the h'americans have
that story their wild west back
in eastern europe: who else if not
a ronald reagan and a pop john II to boost
credibility...

but sure as shit Afghanistan and Iraq
are the true proxy wars...
imagine a Saudi thinking about an Iraqi...
like a German might think about a Romanian...
but what great anti-war song
akin to: something from creedence clearwater revival?
or the whole Vietnam soundtrack?

a quest for disbelief...
because the proxy war wasn't staged by h'americans:
for h'americans - in terms of Iraq...
Vietnam? a proxy war staged by h'americans:
for h'americans (and the whole of the western world)...
given the cultural output from it...
kill a son: give another something to jabber on
about...

what can h'americans revel in, culturally...
after the war in iraq? what song about the "war"?
sure... they were always making war movies...
movies that always seemed to have the highest
agenda riding the narrative wave subconsciously...
the grand narrative of...
some people do not share democratic concerns...
Gaddafi knew something that might have
suggested: what brain-drain?
you will see the heads of mediocre rise up
and you will not gain a single brain from Libya...
but a kalashnikov wielding mad-strain
of trigger-happy "hippies"...

the past 20 or years have been really unconvincing...
i'm not even bothered
as to whether the narrative sticks or not...
but it sometimes should...
otherwise everything is half-baked...
and half-baked is not good enough...
i'd say that: at least when you have raw
cookie dough... you have something...
probably as good as the baked "the end"...
but half-baked shit? you have nothing...
it really has been an unconvincing 20 years or so...

the more it ages... the more ridiculous it becomes...
and the worst of it is:
no one can be rid of it...
too many undercurrents...
too many hands shaking hands under the table
of power... as many hands shaking
as hands jerking off the glutton barons of
the "happy happenstance of...
staying it out in a desert for oil to be magically
needed"...

what future war could even become,
remotely, convincing, patriotic or whatever they were?
the secret hope for alien life...
and a unifying project of war against this new
enemy...
oh how otherwise not naive?
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