The feeling is sickening
What else can you do
No control whatsoever
It keep trampling one muscle
Numbness sets in
Pain spasming its course
A killing pain yet death stands aloof
Grueling suffering pounces on the heart
Wishes for death remains unheard
Oh why ?
Is it my sins ?
Was it that much ?
Am I deserving of the much?
Am not sure I was this evil
Neither a was I so good nor bad
My job escaped
Money departed
Now poverty stands in the way
Hunger roams about my belly
Loan sharks swims at the gate
Ready to rip flesh to shreads
Threw property in water to keep them at bay
Too weak to even stand
My face got strokes
Life keep flashing before me
Yet alive I was to witness everything
The pain, shame, blame et al
Yet I am power-less and less and less
And less
I sank into despair