i feel like a weight
no
no
in fact
i am a weight
a weight that drags me down
down
down
down
into the further pits of the earth
into the deepest of the marina trench
into the soil beneath me six feet down
its pulls until i fall
until i can no longer move
until my bones break from the weight
until i am nothing but a rock
there to watch
to erode
to stay
but i don’t want to stay
so much to do
that i do not want to do
so much life
a life i don’t want
for
i am a weight
dragging me further into the pits of my soul
my mind
my body
dragging my thoughts into the abyss
into the void
into the maelstrom in my mind
as i get dragged and pulled and grasped
until i am left once again
a storm thundering in my mind
as thoughts drag me down
further and further
my body heavy
like a weight
for
i am a weight