I wish I could cry and my tears would take me with them.
I want to melt into the floor, the walls, and just not exist.
I want the pain to escape and never come back, even if I have to go with it.

I wish I could just breathe.
I want to feel safe, a professor, he's a nice guy, I’m a freak.
I want to not feel this way, to not be scared of my own shadow

I wish I wasn’t the girl everyone knows not to touch
I want to be loved and love in return
I want to get hugs and be normal.

I wish I could tell her how I feel
I want her to feel the same
I want to be worth her time, I want to be there for her

I wish someone was there for me
I want someone to know that I. Am. Not. OK
I want to relax and not be tense

I wish I was good enough
I want to be different
I want to be anything but me

I wish I was dead