less and less am I able to answer the question of why I write
sometimes it seems: in order to write
sometimes I see the light
less and less the interest in poetry (not to mention prose)
sometimes it seems: I read in order to forget
sometimes it seems: I am behind this involuntary play of words
more and more I force myself to be with lithuanian poets
sometimes the poets are hearty and tortuous like in russian poetry
sometimes drunken and aggressive like in rap
sometimes barely there like me
more modestly I think about lithuanian poetry
sometimes I remember only a few names: vytautas alfonsas sigitas
sometimes I say: poetry can teach art not life
sometimes I ask: does poetry care for life like celan
sometimes I am silent: this ignorance will bring trouble upon me