Ill never regret a single second.
The time that we've spent.
The things that I've said.

I may not know what I want.
What my mind thinks or what my heart wants
instead.

A surging conflict burning within.
What to do.
Who will win?

You say follow my heart and where it leads.
But what if it's destruction that it heeds?

Prevention of happiness.
For it's what I do not deserve.
For what I've done is obsurd.

To hurt the ones I love because I can't decide.
What is it that I'm trying to hide?
To find?
I wish that I could just decide.

Causing you pain.
I never wanted to.
You sit back and let me do the things I want.
Whether it causes you pain or not.

You're strong for me pushing through the complications.
Loving me with no reservations.

Tell me you'll be happy with whatever I decide.
Your constant patience and love.
To face a decision;
I'd rather hide.

I don't want to lose you, but I hate that you hurt.
It's not fair for you to be in despair.

Why can't I just decide?
Why must I want to run and hide
from the confusion and hard decisions?

The one that may make me lose it all;
from a cliff I want to fall
into the water and swim like the dream that I wish I was in.

I run and hide from the burning conflict inside.